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| photo credit: Joseph Kim |
Before reading any further, listen to this song below. :)
You didn't really have to listen to the song, but I think it's a really fun song to listen to!
I really like the chorus of the song.
"Beautiful surrender is where I wanna be
locked into your arms for all eternity
come and take my hand
you can lead me where you please
that beautiful surrender is chasing after me."
As I step back in reflection of my life, I see God's hand over every season of my life from when I was born until now - guiding me, leading me - whether I knew it in those moments or not. Twenty-one has been one eventful year! I titled this post "Beautiful Surrender" because these two words sum up this year very well. This year God has been asking me to trust him through disappointments and when circumstances didn't make sense logically (when the circumstances didn't seem to align with what I believe God spoke and promised over my life but this is what faith is!). Even though the results I had been looking for didn't meet my expectations in various areas in life, as I surrendered and stepped back, I realized that God is working in the details. Even when I cannot see with my eyes what God is doing, He's working and He's doing something greater and better than I know. And so, in this season, God has been asking me to surrender. I suppose when we think about the word "surrender" it feels like it's the last resort. In a war, people will fight for their nation as long as they can stand before surrendering. But the type of surrender God was asking from me wasn't forceful but so gentle. He was asking me to surrender every part of my life, to trust in his perfect timing - to surrender my desires, wants, and plans of what I thought life was supposed to look like. Because it's only when I surrender my own desires and wants, He can fill me. It's only in full surrender that He can take me further than I thought I could go. It's only when I surrender, He can mold me and use me according to His plans and not mine.
And so, I'll be turning twenty-two tomorrow. I have no idea what life is going to look like after I graduate, but I will be faithful to what God places in front of me and loving the people around me, trusting that I'm exactly where He wants me to be. Exciteeeeed for what God has in store!!
