rain

Today, it was raining. To be more specific (getting ready for the AP Lang exam!), it was lightly drizzling. I like this kind of rain. It's not like the humid rain that soaks everything, making everything unpleasant. It's not like the thundering rain that creates crashes of thunder, frightening little kids. This rain, this kind of rain, screams "new beginning!" I suppose that's what spring is about -- new beginnings and growth. Even though it's spring and I love spring, I can't help feeling like autumn on the inside. It seems to be a transitioning time from junior year to senior year (much bigger transition than any other year). I could sit here and worry, worry, and worry, but that's not going to get me anywhere. I kept thinking how sad it was that the year was almost over, but then I realized something. I realized that God knows the best. I mean, I knew that, but it's that epiphany when you actually realize it. Without realizing it, I have been trying to control everything once again. I have been trying to do thing my own way and that only brought me frustration. I was frustrated over the weekend or maybe the past few weeks about certain things, but then I realized I was creating unrealistic expectations for people. Yes, I wish people would care more about things because it's hard caring when no one else is, but I can't control people. Only God can change people's hearts. All I can do is trust God and accept people the way they are. And so, again, Grace tries to do things her own way only to realize that God's ways are superior. When I gave everything all up to God yesterday, it felt sooo good. (:

I know I have been put in certain positions by God. He lead me to the positions so he will lead me throughout the summer and senior year. I know there will certainly be difficulties in life. This is life. But at the same time, I know that God's plans for me are the best, better than the greatest dreams I can imagine. This applies to you too (whoever you are). God's plans for you are soooo much better than any of the greatest plans you have! Trust him and he will definitely lead you through life. Even when it's hard and you can't seem to see anything in front of you, keep pressing on. Don't give up. Not matter what happens, don't give up. Now, I will go take my advice. (:

Perfect song to end this post with: